Starting a blog about my life and my story is something I have wanted to do for a long time. There are many reasons I have wanted to blog; the main reason is to tell my side of a story that has been misconstrued by someone else who likes to lie and manipulate people, but the other reason is because I need somewhere to vent and talk about things I don’t typically talk about with other people.
Preface:
I am currently studying to get a degree in Mechanical Engineering. It took me quite a while to figure out what I wanted to do. There were so many things I could picture myself doing but nothing ever seemed to click. I tried studying business and got bored. I tried studying chemistry to become a forensic scientist and didn’t find chemistry interesting enough to continue. Then I took a couple years off from school to try to become more of an adult and just live life with no pressure to figure out who I was supposed to be. After being out of school for the first year, I realized I wanted to move away and go back to school. Not because I hated my family or where I lived, but because I am such a family oriented person that my family was a distraction to me. I always felt like I had a huge responsibility to my family and if I missed an event that was for niece or nephew, or little cousins, or any family event, then I would feel terrible. I knew what was best for myself and for my future, and that was to move 800+ miles away from my family in order to start what would be my future. I thought I had it all figured out too. I was gonna go to school to be an architect and I wanted to work for insurance agencies that handled big natural disasters and more. I thought that’s what I wanted to do. Then, after being back in school for I think two months, I realized that wasn’t what I wanted to do either. One of the first people I met when I moved here was a Mechanical Engineering student and he was always talking about the things he could do with his degree because it’s such a versatile degree. I used to always think about being an engineer but never thought I had it in me. I never felt like I was smart enough and I also felt like it wasn’t where I was supposed to go in life. BUT I came to realize that everything this friend was talking about, was stuff I wanted to learn. I changed my major to Mechanical Engineering halfway through the semester, and here I am, two years later, with only three semesters left until graduation. I have changed so much since moving away from my family. I have started to become the woman I believe I am supposed to be. I have found my own way(s) of thinking, found my own beliefs, and also discovered a lot of things about myself. I have come to terms with many things I experienced growing up. Other people have helped me see that certain things I do aren’t irrational and it’s because of the trauma I experienced as a kid, and it’s not a bad thing. I have taught myself how to be even more independent, which is a good and bad thing because I was already extremely independent as is. But I love who I am. And I love who I am becoming. Which is also why I believe it’s finally okay for me to tell my story and to talk about my life. Because that’s exactly what it is:
MY STORY. MY LIFE.
My Story: My Life 